My
evolution as a writer is a funny story. It’s been a series of ups and downs,
sometimes reflecting what was going on in my life, as is the story for most
writers. Since 2007, I have been a member of Writer’s Café, a cool site that a
friend recommended to me ages ago. The ups and downs could be reflected there.
I went through a period where I closed my account. Then I opened it back up and
suddenly, I couldn’t write fast enough. A bunch of short pieces, but writing
nonetheless. I was writing and reading and reviewing and loving every minute of
it. And then I became addicted to Sex and the City. Suddenly, I went through a
period of wanting to write nothing but nonfiction, things like Carrie Bradshaw
wrote. This was about the time that I switched majors to follow my dream of
being a writer. It was also when my writing on the Café trickled to a halt.
In the time
since, I have started and maintained a blog in which I posted my musings about
life and my fellow human beings. I created a website to forward myself as a
writer. I deleted everything I had posted to Writer’s Café with the intention
of somehow correlating that account to my website. This was all before I
graduated with my English degree. My nonfiction leanings found their playground
in my English classes, particularly in my experiences in Senior Sem. I actually
enjoyed writing about Ron Rash’s
work.
Now that I
have my degree and my obsession with Sex and the City is fading to more of a “I
go to you when I need comfort, you’re my TV chocolate” (that I still indulge in
too much), I’m at a point in my life that I will probably look back on with
disgust and semi-hatred. That’s to say, I’m without a clear direction for the
first time. I miss nearly everything about college, about school in general.
And I’m fearful of the future and where it will take me. More like where it
won’t take me, truth be told. A psychologist would probably attribute my
longing for my campus to that.
In addition
to feeling a lack of direction, I’ve also been twiddling my thumbs with my site
and my writing in general. I’ve had ideas and I’ve been slowly working on my
current novel obsession. What I’ve been at a loss for is what to do with my
site, my blog, and my Writer’s Café account.
I’ve seen
people who get bogged down by the things that aren’t going right in their lives
and I don’t want to be one of them. I’ve always tried to enjoy my life for what
it is and to do anything less feels like a violation of everything I’ve ever
believed in. With that being said, I’ve come to somewhat of a conclusion as to
what to do with my…everything. It’s all about my writing, not about my website.
The site is a central place to find it all.
Speaking of
which, I’ve posted two new things to the Café. Well, they’re not that new, but
they’re new to the Café.
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