To any
artists out there, do you ever feel like your life is so in your face that the
muses absolutely evade you? Keeping up my blog is no problem. Writing in my
journal has become a semi-daily thing again, but the creativity for my fiction
has trickled to a halt. These days, I’m just not feeling it. It just seems like
real life is demanding far too much attention and as a hopeful to-be published
writer, that feeling does not bode well. The future is daunting enough without
adding the bulk of an unpublished manuscript to the list.
Something
that has been on my mind lately is the probably unusual realization that I am
very young. I’m only twenty-one. Most of the successful writers I love and
follow are in their thirties. I watch Sex and the City on a regular basis and
these women are in their mid to late thirties, with a lot more living ahead of
them. This is something that it seems a lot of people my age do not realize,
just how much still lies ahead. We hit our twenties and we think this is it,
that we are adults and this is our lives. But it’s just the beginning. We’re
learning how to fish and beginning to forge our way into the world and oh so
much lies ahead. Unless you have kids right off the bat. It seems like the
people who have kids young say the years fly by and they do not know what
happened to their lives. I do not want that to be me.
At some
point, I’d like to go to graduate school. I want to visit Ireland and Scotland
and have the freedom to look around in wonder and not be constantly tracking
munchkins. When the possibility of going to Scotland came up for this past
summer, I had great plans for documenting my adventures through my blog and I
still want to do that, whenever I get a chance to go overseas.
Anything is
possible if you have faith and work your butt off as well. And another definition
of maturity is that you can ask for your parents’ input and honestly take it
into consideration, but still make your own decision. There could probably be a
Twitter account just tweeting things that define maturity, but anyway.
I’m too
young to be worried about solidifying where I fit in the world, even if I’m
already ahead of the game with a website, which I am very proud of. I’ll figure
out what to do with my writing. I’ll figure out where my life is heading and
the road will have it’s ups and downs, it’s joys and pains. And I’ll do what I do
best along the way, which is write. It’s the one thing, besides my Bear and my
faith, that I can never doubt.
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